What’s going on with my BS life

Kill me cause I no longer feel like I am breathing anyways. Slowly I suffocate in my own independence, I don’t like keeping people around but yet im lonely all the time. The only noise I hear at night is my tv, fuck it if I’m by myself I’ll be so much better. I feel like I dont need anyone and whoever feels like they’re making my life any better walk away because I’ll replace you with another fuck up I get tired of seeing.